the way the brain works, a poem

me

you

tsunami and 53,000 dead
what can we do
anything at all

work

discovery of something grand
release of said idea into internal marketplace

wedding invitations for a wedding, my wedding, long off, a question mark
with ornate pink peonies printed on clear vellum, outlined in soft gold,
caressing stock of deepest chocolate brown with raised white letters my finger could trace

tsunami and tragedy affecting humanity

back to me
feeling like a shithead for being so selfish

you, a redeeming blip on my radar screen amidst the turbulent waters of decay and decomposition that threaten to dispel hope in a land ravaged, decimated

in my mind ever wandering, ever wondering
if all these pieces fit together

if it’s okay to grieve for men and women, then shift
so easily, guiltily
to exultation for self-discovery
for imminent possibilities and moments brimming over with creativity

my heart beating, thumping loudly in my chest declaring with each staccato
i am alive
i am alive
and so many have died, but i live on

turning back to thoughts that i can’t control who lives and dies
i can only do so much in this cubicle space at work
to affect the other end of the world
but that sounds selfish too

i cut mini vellum squares announcing our congratulations
to recipients of these small packets of tea, people on private jets,
my movements small

the rain drips down like a faucet mindlessly, languorously dropping
threads of water on the patch of earth outside my window,
making the grass a brilliant shade of green.
technicolor, really

much like you, much like me

what kind of soul i am- fun quiz

You Are a Newborn Soul
You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

fun quiz to be taken equal parts in fun and in contemplation. hmm.

what are you? do share: http://www.blogthings.com/kindsoulquiz.html

virtual ipod birthday bash recap

so i must have had one of the best birthday parties ever last friday night.

the theme was virtual ipod and i challenged everyone to make a mixed cd of the songs they feel best represent who they are. tricky and fun all at the same time. people really got into it- everything from not being able to stop at one cd, but making three, as well as clever packaging with progressive artwork. we played a super-fun songwriting game where everyone contributed a line to various songs being written that had us rolling with laughter. we had crazy music themes for our songwriting pages- everything from angry girl music to boy band, from opera to heavy metal. perhaps i shall post a few of the best collaborations (there were around 18 of us collaborating on each song) in blogs to come. we then later played a name that tune game, played by ruben on his guitar. it was really hard core. we had to guess the artist, album, year of release, and title. really hard. but fun. friends came and went throughout the evening and then we shut the doors at 2 a.m. (well those still left either crashed on the couch- me or headed home- kenny, michelle, adam, mad, and tyler). what a good evening. this was definitely a year of feast in terms of the love i got on my birthday. i love being loved. and i love watching random people connect and become friends or reconnect with old ones. what a fun party.

a tickle in my nostril means one thing

it is my turn to succumb to the dreaded (cue "dun dun dun" noise) sinus infection.
the most curious thing happened today, as if hyde slowly was coming out of jekyll, my headache actually moved down and around the parameter of my head and finally settled into my teeth. now i have never had a headache in my teeth before, but i can assure you it is most unsettling and can be likened only to a giant cavity compromising all top molars on one side of your face... a great impetus to stop eating candy really, except tomorrow's my birthday, so that course of action won't do at all.

weird dream

i dreamt last night that i was about to go on a voyage of goodwill, where we would go help out in an impoverished country and we were in the process of debriefing when it hit me that my suitcase was empty- i had forgotten to pack a lick of clothing or toiletries! to my dismay, the only outfit i had with me was the one i was wearing, culottes and a flowy blouse (ew). my cousin erika was going to my roommate on the ship taking us to our location but she was busy listening to the speaker and filing her nails. i looked in the general direction of my mom for help and at first she agreed to go get some clothing from the house. but then she stopped and settled back into her chair as if she had just encountered some sort of remorse or a different course of action and told me that i would just have to learn from this lesson. i mouthed over to her that that was pretty crappy and got out of my seat to go negotiate with her. she finally agreed to take me to ross. except the ross we went to was very bizarro- hardly any clothing and a lot of fishing equipment and furniture pieces. what i ended up finding clothing-wise were silk camisoles and t-shirts obviously intended to be super-form fitting. not many choices, but thankfully mom had an extra pair of flip-flops in her car...

as we drove hurriedly back to the debriefing center, we knew we were running super-late and heard honking from across the street. the team was headed in the opposite direction and we were stuck in bumper to bumper traffic.

then i woke up. what could it mean? i almost think it means there is something in my life that i am not prepared for. maybe i've missed the boat somewhere. what do you think?

hip-hop name generator

ooh. too fun. so this website will give you a hip-hop name.
mine's "tre fresh z"
please do share yours with me!

http://www.prosanityworld.com/games/hipHopName.html