Monday, March 07, 2005

green march and its various diagnoses

last week i had the pleasure and sheer fatigue of getting to fly on 8 airplanes within one week. i jetted to new orleans for work, then back to san francisco and then out to minneapolis for work, which was no small feat (considering i had two 4 a.m. wake-up calls within the week).

i have dubbed this month green march, for the logical connection (st. patrick's day) and the pointed, personal one (money). i even found that oprah's march issue is on money, so her editors and i must be on the same wavelength- maybe i'll be the next big thing in her o list of favorites, who knows.

while in new orleans, i endeavored to contemplate the piracy of things at work through prayer and meditation of key passages in the Bible. it was a great time of me being cooped up in a hotel room, finally forced to do some necessary evaluations and having no distractions or conflicts to prevent me from focusing in. through this, i remember having to push through fatigue because i wanted to hear from God badly enough on these things. so here's a brief synopsis of my discoveries:

-- though the last two students from my grad school put in their two weeks notice a week apart from each other, it doesn't mean it's my time to move on.
-- but i am moving housing-wise (have an idea of the where and am 85% convinced)
-- my boss had a dream one night two weeks ago of me being in another country among village children, happy with a big smile on my face and short-haired.
-- so living overseas is relegated to the periphery of things for now, again.
-- i am contemplating getting a small dog.
-- not sure that it's more than a contemplation at this part.
-- was made aware that i am weak in and need to change at work in certain behaviors.
-- was made aware that i need to take a different tack when it comes to my finances.
-- but specifically when it comes to wanting to live a simple life, but wrestling with the overindulgence that is the american dream.

i have a new theory that i might be well suited to be in a bedouin tribe having profound appreciation for being nomadic. may green march find you ready. drop me a line and tell me what you're contemplating these days, if you'd like.


Blogger Sandra said...

I have no idea where March is going to take me. New apartment, new people (umm, the "situation" completely exploded...shall email you there,, actually I'm just tired of talking/thinking about it, just know it's over and didn't end well), new job which is still an unknown.

My new roommates have a motto that the greatest miracles come from service (or something along those lines). So, I think the next few months are going to be investing in people here and serving their needs. I want to focus on something other than me for a good long while (umm, forever?).

I'm also going to take the opportunity to unlearn some of the lies that I've believed about myself since childhood. Some deep-seated ones that I believe are impeding my relationship with God, what I really believe of Him, and what I can accomplish through Him. 'Cause right now, I feel like the seed that's fallen on the thorns -- like I've heard, but I'm so caught up in "worries...of this life" that no maturity can take place. This stuff needs to be addressed now.

Let the healing begin!

5:32 PM  
Blogger annelies said...

george costanza said it best when he said, "serenity now!"

sandra- let's chat soon... i'll be praying for you.

9:03 PM  
Blogger End_User-X said...

What you guys are saying is awesome. Sandra, for you: Romans 12:1-2. Annelies, it's great you are seeking God to hear from Him. I can tell you from experience, fasting helps along with the praying. It puts our flesh down so we can get in a position to hear God's voice. We have a prayer room we call the House of Prayer at our church, or the HoP. No distractions, just some good worship music and the presence of God. The more time we spend with Him, the more we're changed to be more like Him. Oh and this will be Green March for me too, as it's the biggest money month for me at work.

9:16 PM  

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